bad day...good day...

wiihuuu...

i was darn excited today. 1st, the stpm trial was postponed. don't know what's the reason.just feel happy la. can have much more time to study but still sitting sitting in front of my laptop typing this blog. duhh~~2nd, my t-shirt design was approved. haha~~ darn happy. undeniable, my design was so good. very paiseh plak if i say i'm good in this stuff but i'm really good in this stuff. haha~~ 3rd, just after praise & worship practise. felt so darn great cause finally can apply the things i've learned from the praise & worship conference. took me 30 minutes ti tune the vocals mic. actually i need more time to tune it since i'm kind of "new" here and everyone seems so anxcious to start the practise especially my dad. his the worship leader for this week. haizz~~ never mind. just let it be since i've learn that we must be humble and follow the lead of the worship leader. so have to tahan lor.

then the practise start with the music flowing through the air and my click on my laptop to show the lyrics. was so buzy that time since i'm taking to job in a time. need to control the sound system and doing powerpoint in the same time. this job just freak me out although it's my favourite job of all. but still i need break sometime. hope to find some pengganti. there's a guy in the conference said to me singing is the most easiest job in the p&w team since they just have to open up their wide mouth and sing out loud. lol~~ and my job is the taughest of all since i have to be updated with the latest technology and something sewaktu dengannya. his definately right. i'm the best reference since i'm taking the job as sound operator and projectionist. everyone seems to like blame me if something goes wrong especially my dad and mom. if i don't click the next slide they blame me for not focussing; if i don't focus on the machine console, they blame me for not doing my job. sometime i just want to say "I QUIT!!!" cause it's not all my fault. sometimes it's the laptop problem for slowing down the sequence and i'm the one who was blamed. and i can't do 2 job in one time especially if the job needs concentration just like mine. i've explained to them so many time but they seems cannot digest what i've said. is it because of their age or what?

like just now, when i'm doing the powerpoint, my dad always urge me. balik balik "ok le ma?? ok mei you?? kuai dian e!! zuo mo bu zao dian zuo??" was so darn pissed off. he seems like don't understand the situation. like i can do it in 1 sec. i need time to finish it then i can show the powerpoint out so no miss take will occur. when he said no need to edit or readjust it, just show it out; then i show it la since his the leader. then problem sure come out de. who to blame?? i am - raising up my hand admitting i the one to blame. that's the problem i'll face every week. then when the mic not functioning, they blame me for not turning on the channel. last last, the mic cable problem. every week i'll scratch my head asking why do they always do this to me; it's obviously not my fault.

sometime i'll say in my mind, it's darn hard to become a priest's son and serve under his supervision especially my dad. he'll set a higher standard for me than the others. just don't know the reason. is it because i'm his son so i need to do work efficiently?? haizz~~ just can't find the answer. this time, the devil will tell me to quit the team and see them zit do without me; the angel side will tell me not to for what i'm doing is not for our sake, it's for God's sake since i was worshipping Him in the process of doing this thingy. in the end, angel always defeat devil. haizz~~

just hope this problem can end soon.

please God, open their mind and heart so that they can understand everyone's situation especially me. and please grant me strength to continue serve You in Your house. it's my passion to serve You Lord.

there's good thing and there bad thing. can't escape from this fact. but still, is this a good day for me or my bad day??