another lame day...

just don't know why?felt different today...
just feel today is not my day...
so 无聊...so 残废的一天...

话说回来就在今天凌晨开始。but 1st 我是觉得非常 success 的。coz 我竟然会用 Adobe Photoshop 来做些动画。就在昨晚十点左右开始进行为主日崇拜的一些预备工作。今天的主日崇拜是结合了“马太与朋友主日之 Hope-Celebration of Hope Malaysia”和“圣洗礼主日”。每当有特别的主日，我都会做一些东西 then display 出来。（要耍花样嘛。。。嘻嘻。。。）

then 这次是我第一次用 photoshop 来做这些 display。做的有很成功下。所以就觉得很 successful 咯。早上起身特别有精神（虽然昨晚做到凌晨四点。。。哈哈。。。我是野猫来的。。。miaooo。。。）换好衣服，吃了 koko krunch， then head straight to church。 set up everything, tested everything, all went good.

崇拜开始了。

主理：“原主与你们同在。”
回应：“也与你同在。”
主理：“我很喜欢你对我说。”
回应：“我们通往主的殿。”
主理：“来啊，我们一同歌颂主。”
回应：“我们要向全能的救主大声欢呼。”
主理：“上帝是灵。”
回应：“我们当以心灵和诚实他。”
主理：“荣耀归于上帝，圣父，圣子，圣灵。”
回应：“赞美归于主，从现在直到永远。阿门。”

this is how we start our sunday service. everyweek the same thing was repeat.
then the worship team start take over.
就在这里我开始觉得失败了。鼓手已经没有了，没关系。 but the thing is how they play with the instrument. not they don't know how to play. totally pathetic la. not like they haven't join any praise and worship conference. they should be taught on how to play while worship. ni play like kayu. ok never mind. just let it be. 事情已经发生了。 then powerpoint 出问题了。 my bad. after that, everything went wrong. all wrong. 开 vcd, player not wotking. nasib i got another player. it's a good thing to have backup everytime. 我中共有三到四个 player insatalled in my laptop. 过后，奉献诗。then problem came out again. the powerpoint i shown was not the song they practise last friday. a total disaster you know since i want everything to go on smoothly and perfect. 不知道是我的错还是做周刊的人的错。 只有一句话 “whatever”。 散会之前会场散会诗。唱了我们一向来都不会唱的歌。没有人会唱 but 牧师选了这首歌。that's why only hear him singing. then the drummer came back. 很不喜欢她来打。不跟节拍的。1st slow, then suddenly the tempo went up. haizz..不知道为什么好要他打。

不多说。终知就是觉得很失败。不懂他们会不会觉得的失败。我就会觉得非常失败。

oh God, please help me. i'm felt very unsuccess in leading Your church. please help me strenthen my faith upon You. and show me the way You want me to go. take my hands and lead me. for You are the alpha the beta, the beginning and the end, the creator of all things and beings, the One who love me first, the One who will never be apart from my life, the One that i need. the One that i love the most, my Heavenly Father, King of all kings, Lord of all lords, the most worthy...help me Lord. You are my only refuge. please help me overcome all this.