i'm moving again...

yeah...that's my main title for this entry.

and again, i'm moving. not moving from house to house in the same district. but moving from district to district. this time, i'm back to the east side of sabah again since last time i moved from Lahad Datu to Kudat. now from Kudat to Tawau. phew....always get the far place.

this time also with the same reason, cause my dad's job.

now my burden are getting heavier.
1. my study - STPM is due November. so it's mean there'a a month to go. and i have to start packing my stuff.

2. my stuff - never ever thought i "collected" so many junk. so have to group it out which i want to bring and which i want to throw.

3. my ministry - now have to find someone to back me up for my ministry here since i have to move. if not, my place will be empty forever cause no one willing to back my place.

in my "journey" on packing my stuff i found this?: pic 2 above...

it's my dollies 18 years ago. haha~~

haizz~~

but still i'm thinking of my life there. have to know new friend (which i'm not good in social), get along with new enviroment,get along with the church, etc...

God please help me overcome all this.

another lame day...

just don't know why?felt different today...
just feel today is not my day...
so 无聊...so 残废的一天...

话说回来就在今天凌晨开始。but 1st 我是觉得非常 success 的。coz 我竟然会用 Adobe Photoshop 来做些动画。就在昨晚十点左右开始进行为主日崇拜的一些预备工作。今天的主日崇拜是结合了“马太与朋友主日之 Hope-Celebration of Hope Malaysia”和“圣洗礼主日”。每当有特别的主日，我都会做一些东西 then display 出来。（要耍花样嘛。。。嘻嘻。。。）

then 这次是我第一次用 photoshop 来做这些 display。做的有很成功下。所以就觉得很 successful 咯。早上起身特别有精神（虽然昨晚做到凌晨四点。。。哈哈。。。我是野猫来的。。。miaooo。。。）换好衣服，吃了 koko krunch， then head straight to church。 set up everything, tested everything, all went good.

崇拜开始了。

主理：“原主与你们同在。”
回应：“也与你同在。”
主理：“我很喜欢你对我说。”
回应：“我们通往主的殿。”
主理：“来啊，我们一同歌颂主。”
回应：“我们要向全能的救主大声欢呼。”
主理：“上帝是灵。”
回应：“我们当以心灵和诚实他。”
主理：“荣耀归于上帝，圣父，圣子，圣灵。”
回应：“赞美归于主，从现在直到永远。阿门。”

this is how we start our sunday service. everyweek the same thing was repeat.
then the worship team start take over.
就在这里我开始觉得失败了。鼓手已经没有了，没关系。 but the thing is how they play with the instrument. not they don't know how to play. totally pathetic la. not like they haven't join any praise and worship conference. they should be taught on how to play while worship. ni play like kayu. ok never mind. just let it be. 事情已经发生了。 then powerpoint 出问题了。 my bad. after that, everything went wrong. all wrong. 开 vcd, player not wotking. nasib i got another player. it's a good thing to have backup everytime. 我中共有三到四个 player insatalled in my laptop. 过后，奉献诗。then problem came out again. the powerpoint i shown was not the song they practise last friday. a total disaster you know since i want everything to go on smoothly and perfect. 不知道是我的错还是做周刊的人的错。 只有一句话 “whatever”。 散会之前会场散会诗。唱了我们一向来都不会唱的歌。没有人会唱 but 牧师选了这首歌。that's why only hear him singing. then the drummer came back. 很不喜欢她来打。不跟节拍的。1st slow, then suddenly the tempo went up. haizz..不知道为什么好要他打。

不多说。终知就是觉得很失败。不懂他们会不会觉得的失败。我就会觉得非常失败。

oh God, please help me. i'm felt very unsuccess in leading Your church. please help me strenthen my faith upon You. and show me the way You want me to go. take my hands and lead me. for You are the alpha the beta, the beginning and the end, the creator of all things and beings, the One who love me first, the One who will never be apart from my life, the One that i need. the One that i love the most, my Heavenly Father, King of all kings, Lord of all lords, the most worthy...help me Lord. You are my only refuge. please help me overcome all this.

?????

what the hell am i doing now??haven't sleep yet??just look at the time...i suppose to lay on my bed now & dream something ridiculous now....haha~~

i think this is the earlies blog entry i ever post...

am surfing the net right now while i'm typing this blog entry + downloading some software i really need it.that's the main reason why i haven't sleep yet.right now, my desktop was totally disorder. went stupid liao. cannot boot. haizz. what happen to my desktop??hayooo....

my precious desktop broke down liao. i think it's software broke down. that's why i'm trying to search for some software to help me out & search for some website that can give me the solution.

very headache eh. my techy friend went to holiday liao. cannot ask him to help me to repair my desktop until next week. how can i survive through this torturing days without my precious desktop??hayoo...why this happen to me right now??

nasib baik i still got my rusty old laptop to ease the torture.

SOMEBODY PLEASE HELP ME!!!!

better stop here lah. need to go to bed now. my eyes getting heavier + have to attend class tomorrow. haizz...student life.

good night & good morning. by the way, it's the Muslim fasting month. haizz...have to follow them to fast in school. damn torturing.

让我笑破肚皮的笑话！！！

你们有没有听过这笑话？？
应该有吧!?!?
爱FM整天都回播的。

“一只小海龟在海中游泳，在水面碰到一个从來沒有见过的东西，感觉十分新奇，便向前问：「你是什么东西啊？」这个东西回答说：「我是龙！」说完便幽然地漂离开了。
经过了一百年，小海龟已经长成了大海龟了。在游泳时，他又碰到了这一百年前的老朋友，让他惊奇的是，自己从小海龟变成了大海龟，可是这龙的体形卻一点也沒有改变！海龟自以為自己是世界最长寿的动物，此刻卻碰到了更厉害的角色，很吃味的問道：「你这到底是什么龙啊，为何都不会改变，也不会衰老？」
「喔！因为。。。因为我是保利龙（保利隆）！」”

哈哈～～

真的是个有趣的笑话。不但是个笑话，也是个环保讯息。编这笑话的人一定很pandai的。

哈哈～～

bad day...good day...

wiihuuu...

i was darn excited today. 1st, the stpm trial was postponed. don't know what's the reason.just feel happy la. can have much more time to study but still sitting sitting in front of my laptop typing this blog. duhh~~2nd, my t-shirt design was approved. haha~~ darn happy. undeniable, my design was so good. very paiseh plak if i say i'm good in this stuff but i'm really good in this stuff. haha~~ 3rd, just after praise & worship practise. felt so darn great cause finally can apply the things i've learned from the praise & worship conference. took me 30 minutes ti tune the vocals mic. actually i need more time to tune it since i'm kind of "new" here and everyone seems so anxcious to start the practise especially my dad. his the worship leader for this week. haizz~~ never mind. just let it be since i've learn that we must be humble and follow the lead of the worship leader. so have to tahan lor.

then the practise start with the music flowing through the air and my click on my laptop to show the lyrics. was so buzy that time since i'm taking to job in a time. need to control the sound system and doing powerpoint in the same time. this job just freak me out although it's my favourite job of all. but still i need break sometime. hope to find some pengganti. there's a guy in the conference said to me singing is the most easiest job in the p&w team since they just have to open up their wide mouth and sing out loud. lol~~ and my job is the taughest of all since i have to be updated with the latest technology and something sewaktu dengannya. his definately right. i'm the best reference since i'm taking the job as sound operator and projectionist. everyone seems to like blame me if something goes wrong especially my dad and mom. if i don't click the next slide they blame me for not focussing; if i don't focus on the machine console, they blame me for not doing my job. sometime i just want to say "I QUIT!!!" cause it's not all my fault. sometimes it's the laptop problem for slowing down the sequence and i'm the one who was blamed. and i can't do 2 job in one time especially if the job needs concentration just like mine. i've explained to them so many time but they seems cannot digest what i've said. is it because of their age or what?

like just now, when i'm doing the powerpoint, my dad always urge me. balik balik "ok le ma?? ok mei you?? kuai dian e!! zuo mo bu zao dian zuo??" was so darn pissed off. he seems like don't understand the situation. like i can do it in 1 sec. i need time to finish it then i can show the powerpoint out so no miss take will occur. when he said no need to edit or readjust it, just show it out; then i show it la since his the leader. then problem sure come out de. who to blame?? i am - raising up my hand admitting i the one to blame. that's the problem i'll face every week. then when the mic not functioning, they blame me for not turning on the channel. last last, the mic cable problem. every week i'll scratch my head asking why do they always do this to me; it's obviously not my fault.

sometime i'll say in my mind, it's darn hard to become a priest's son and serve under his supervision especially my dad. he'll set a higher standard for me than the others. just don't know the reason. is it because i'm his son so i need to do work efficiently?? haizz~~ just can't find the answer. this time, the devil will tell me to quit the team and see them zit do without me; the angel side will tell me not to for what i'm doing is not for our sake, it's for God's sake since i was worshipping Him in the process of doing this thingy. in the end, angel always defeat devil. haizz~~

just hope this problem can end soon.

please God, open their mind and heart so that they can understand everyone's situation especially me. and please grant me strength to continue serve You in Your house. it's my passion to serve You Lord.

there's good thing and there bad thing. can't escape from this fact. but still, is this a good day for me or my bad day??

ayoyoyoyoyoyo......

what to do leh??

STPM is coming liao...few months to go liao...

aiyo...

oh God...please help me...i'm quite nervous now...grant me the wisdom i need...grant me the peace i need...for You are the almighty Lord...my lovely Heavenly Father...

AMEN

Praise & Worship Conference

30th August - 1st September, 2007

Sabah Anglican has organized Praise & Worship Conference.

the main idea for this conference is "to know the importance of music and vibrant expressions in praise & worship as they must not diminish the substance of doctrine which must from the backbone of our worship. and our worship service must be orderly and they must also edify those who come to worship the Lord." this is the message from Bishop Albert Vun, Sabah Anglican Bishop.

yeah...i have joined this conference and it helps me a lot...thank God for that cause i know this is God's desire...

from this conference, they held some coordination and workshop...and i join the Sound Engineer worshop...

this is some of the main point:

WORSHIP TEAM COORDINATION

1. Biblical Basis for Worship Musicians

a) worship musicians are consecrated as it was written in Numbers 8: 14-16

b) worship musicians are well-organized as it was written in 1 Chronicles 23: 4-5

c) worship musicians are skillful as it was written in 1 Chronicles 15: 22, 25: 7, 25: 3, 25; 6

d) everyone in the Kingdom of God should be a worshipper. but not all worshippers are musicians, and not all musicians are worshippers. the need in the Body of Christ is not just for talented musicians, but anointed worshippers who are sklilled musicians. that was called WORSHIP MUSICIANS.

e) and every worship musicians have the responsibility to lead worship to a changed life; otherwise, worship will becomes either a mere liturgy or just a emotional boost.

2. QUALITIES OF WORSHIP MUSICIANS

a) sanctification; in Numbers 8: 14-16

b) submission; in 1 Chronicles 25: 6; 6: 32

c) sensitivity; in 2 Kings 3: 15-16

d) skillful; 1 Chronicles 15:22

3. WORSHIP LIFESTYLE OF WORSHIP MUSICIANS

a) have a whole hearted and enthusiastic attitude

b) be prepared

so, a worship service is to serve God with our praises and to serve people's needs with His sufficiency.

and i've learned that music is the essence of worship besides our heart.

"next to the Word of God, i give music the highest honor" this is what Martin Luther said.

God created music for us to worship Him alone.

besides that, music can lead to do unbelievable things. it also written in the Bible. Elisha speak revelation while the harpist played some music ( 2 Kings 3: 13-16). King Saul calm down while David was playing with his harp ( 1 Samuel 10: 5-6). from this it's proven that music can lead us to do unbelievable things.

therefore, it is our responsibility as the church praise & worship team to lead the church. as we are second from the the priest.

in the sound engineering side, i've learn a lot.

1. how to solve feedback problem.

2. how to tune the best sound.

3. the responsibility of a sound engineer.

4. the way sound engineer coorperate with worship leader and musicians.


wow....thanks Lord for all of this...

some picture available here http://jonyew.multiply.com/photos/album/3/Praise_Worship_Conference