here i have good news and bad news.
got this news yesterday.
feel like wanna blog it down.

"wanna hear the good news 1st or the bad news?" - very typical question that will be ask for good and bad news.

always bad news 1st.

the bad news is,
i'm leaving Kudat earlier than what i've axpected.
that's mean i can't stay hear anymore for the sunday service.
that's mean i have approximately 4 weeks staying here.
going to leave Kudat at the 5th of december.
meaning i'm leaving the day after i finish my STPM exam.
boy..what a rush.
this mean again no farewell no anything.
the time come then have to move.
very frustrated.
i thought i have the week to spend with my friends.
mingle around Kudat town for the last time.
then who know my dad came back from a meeting then told us we have to move earlier than the date we axpected.

now is the good news.
i can stay at my current house until i move.
you guys must saying "duh!!"
yeah....
at 1st we are planning to clear up this house to make space for renovation.
but the owner-to-be said we don't have to clear this house until we move.
that's mean the renovation will be postpone after we move.
that's mean we don't have yo stay at the rusty activity center anymore.
YAY!!
what a relieve.
phew...

going to stop here.
will blog next time.
good night.
~~yawn~~

MY FEELING

look at the date now.
approximately for another 5 weeks,
i'll be leaving Kudat.
yeah...
a month to go.

feel like so burden.
you know the feeling like when you are carrying something like 1 tonne object.
my heart felt so heavy.
don't know whether i'll cry that day or not.
coz i'm kind of the guy that easy to cry.
not i'm sissy or a crybaby.
but it's my nature.
can say that i'm kind of an emotional guy.

feel like i'm starting to miss this place.
miss this house.
miss when the time i'm in front of my pc in a room full with shoes plus the awful ordor when it's raining season. phew.
miss my friends after 7 years of friendship.
miss my church.
miss my ministry here.
miss my pet cause i'm not taking them with me.
miss everything.

there's another 2 weeks to go before i'm sitting for STPM.
my mind so heavy now.
have to make the final boost until the exam.
like the Soyez did the boost to enter the atmosphere.

this time,
my mind suddenly went blank.
like a dotless paper with no ink on it.
so empty.
whenever i start my revision,
it's like the pen went off of ink.
can't write anything on the paper.

sometimes i understand the question,
but seems like i can't remember the answer for it.

feel so hopeless.
just bare not to imagine the time i'm in the real exam.

i've just realize that maybe i've wasted so many time on something that don't benefit me.
but when i'm think of it,
it doesn't seem like i'm wasting my time.
or maybe my time management was poor.
alwasy put much time on something stupid.

yeah.
maybe that's the reason.

if i am able to twist the time back,
maybe i can change the situation.
but i know it's totally, 100%, surely, no doubt of it, undeniable, definately, for sure,
IMPOSSIBLE

maybe i should stop thinking this bloody crap.
and start doing my work.
make the final boost.

i think it should work.
hopefully.

so better stop here.
STUDY, STUDY, STUDY, STUDY, STUDY.
that's it.

Ah~Jon, 加油加油！
i can make it.

时间

看看现在的日期，已经是11月了！！
哇！！
真的没想到时间过得这样快。
想起来，曾经作了很多好事也曾经作了很多坏事。
如果时间可以倒流的话，不知可不可以挽回我所做过的一切。
不管是坏或好。
讲到时间，真得很想把时间停留在这一刻。
因为STPM快到了。剩下19天。
不知该怎样形容我的感受。
又刺激，又害怕，又很期待，又不期待。
终知现在的心情真得很复杂。
如果可以让时间停留在这一刻，哪有多好啊。
不用再这样复杂了。
不用再面对考试了。
不用再面对紧张时刻了。
哇！！有多好啊。
（在作白日梦啊？哪有这样好的事啊？）
哪有随街gap la随街跳。

STPM过后，我就要搬了。
好伤心哦。
因为爸爸的工作需求所以才要搬。
搬去个好远的地方。
从北方到东南方。
从古达到斗湖。
实在太远了。
算算下需要整整10多个小时的路程。
还好，不用坐车去那边。
可以坐飞机。哈哈~~
心情好伤心哦。
要再次跟朋友说再见了。
好不舍得哦。
在这边已经有整整7年了。
不知那里的生活会怎样。

时间剩下不少了。
该珍惜现在所有的东西，所有的时间。
因为时间过了，你怎样做怎样找也挽不回你所用过的时间。

时间也不早了。
该去睡觉了。
本人在此停笔。
有时间再来blog blog下。